[Gig] Cold War Kids

9 April 2007
Bowery Ballroom

This was so humiliating, and this had nothing do to with Cold War Kids. If you happened to see me that day, I beg you don't tell...
Here the story goes...

2:09 PM, April 10
definitely top of my most embarrassing experience.

i was there for the cold war kids, end up just listening to their first song, sitting on the filthy ground outside bowery, recovering from the blackout caused by one god damn beer.

one hour ago from this scenes, i stood inside, holding half empty beer cup, happy with the finding that sounds swirling inside my beer cup and vibrating through my palm.

then it came, the post-beer headache. then i saw it coming, the blackout. i thought i could handle it, just like i handled it couple times before, just stood still, breathe, and waited for it to past. i thought i can handle it, but the next thing i knew i was sitting, no, collapsing on the ground. my eye-sight was blurry, so was my hearing. people hold me up and took me few steps forward to lean on the stage. vaguely i might say something like 'can i just stay here for a while then i'll be ok,' but vaguely someone say i need air and people held me out of the venue. the cold air actually felt refreshing, i just wanted to sit down, i knew it going to pass soon. a nice girl called jennie stayed with me for a while and gave me a hug. i assured her i was going to be ok and send her inside. i sit there, didn't know whether to go back or not, or to laugh or cry. i started to feel cold, then put on my jacket. i decided not going back inside to avoid possible recognition from the crowd, which now i could see clear. i took M103 and headed back home. nothing is more surreal than this, as now i'm writing the whole thing, with my head still feel the residue of last night's beer (theoretically it's unlikely, but i can't sever the tiredness, mentally and physically, from it), and the pain in my ass, literally.

hope writing this down can be therapeutic, since i don't want to recall it, and no one else but me will ever know this. luckily i won't go back to bowery until next month. even with this shit, it still my favorite venue in the city.